i haven't written in this thing in a long long time. summer completely flew by! it's definitely bittersweet seeing as i am ready to get back up to fort collins, but i will miss my girlfriends so much. i just feel like no one will be able to replace them. as they shouldn't...
the weather goes pretty nicely with my mood today. it's an overcast and rainy...i'm not saying i'm in a bad mood at all but pretty sentimental and relaxed and just calm. i've been thinking so much lately. i don't even know where to start. this summer was filled with good and terrible things. i feel like i have lost a lot of people i care about through silly things as i have grown so much closer to such amazing people. it's just crazy how some relationships you think will last forever just don't, or they're just different. isn't that life though...change change change.
i experienced another heartbreak in my life, and almost forgot what it felt like. it's such a growing experience, and i'm still experiencing it...so i have no advice. i'm just learning to let myself be sad if i'm sad, and let God fill my heart with joy because nothing else will do it fully. i'm glad this happened though...especially now. i let my heart grow so far from God this summer, and now before i move back up to fort collins on my own, He is grabbing more and more of my attention. He works that way, you know? i don't ever want Him out of my life though. i can just be so selfish. don't you wish you could snap your fingers and know all the secrets to having a perfect relationship with Christ? i have decided it's supposed to be rocky for a reason...because the times when i don't feel Him near are the times when i know i need Him most. i'm ready for another transformation. please pray for me.
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